Well... I Survived...

Today was one of those days that just completely drains you... mentally, physically and emotionally.  Last night I didn't really sleep, I cried most of the night, even though I was trying to fight it, it kept me awake most of the night.  It may sound bad but I was secretly hoping Levi would be little bit fussy this morning but he wasn't... he was smiling and being sweet from the minute he woke up.  I guess I thought that if he was fussy I wouldn't feel like I was missing out on his sweet smiles while I was at work today.  But it was special getting to spend a little bit of time with my happy baby this morning.

Thankfully he fell asleep on the way over to Erica's otherwise I don't think I would have made it to work this morning.  I don't think that I would have been able to walk away from his smiling face or sweet eyes.  I was very quick at Erica's, I knew that if I didn't get out of there fast it would be trouble.  So I put him down (still asleep), told her what was in his bag, thanked her, and almost ran out.  Then I spent my ride to school in tears.  It felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest and in truth I had left my heart with her this morning.

Walking into to school was strange... and walking into my classroom was a nightmare.  It was a mess even though my sweet friends had tried to clean it the best they could the day before.  Papers were just stacked everywhere! It turned out to be a blessing in disguise though because it kept me busy all day.  As the day went on it got easier, I have some pretty great friends that would helped when I needed or they would just drop in and check on me.  Then late morning I got an email... with a picture... talk about put a smile on my face!!

Erica sent me an email with his picture!  Just what I needed.  The rest of the day actually went by rather quickly.  The only time I got teary eyed is when someone would ask how I was doing or how I was holding up.  My students were actually rather well behaved and happy to see to me.  All in all today wasn't as horrible as I imagined it would be... it killed me leaving him this morning but he was well taken care of and it looked like he was having fun with Erica!  Knowing that he is being well taken care of and having a good time is what is going to get me through!! Such a blessing not worrying about his well being... I just have to miss him.

I say today wasn't horrible but then again I knew that I would have the weekend with him, if I went back to work on a Monday I might not say the same.  We will see how it goes next week!!

I have 3 work weeks, then one week off with him, then 7 work weeks and I get the whole summer with him!!  I'm already counting down!!

Towards the end of the day I got another email... you don't even know how it made me feel getting those emails... I stopped everything I was doing to check it!  This is what I saw...

I've spent the evening holding him, listening to him tell me about his day, and now watching him nap.  Kenneth went and got us a delicious dinner and now we are relaxing.  Just what I needed to end this day!  Looking forward to spending the entire day tomorrow with my baby boy!! :)