Here We Go...

I return to work tomorrow.  I can not even begin to explain how I feel about that... I'm not ready that's for sure... but I don't think I would ever be ready if I had the choice.  I did get almost 3 months home which is more than most get so I am thankful for that but it doesn't mean that I'm not sad and little bit angry that I have to go back. 

Yesterday we went and visited Erica and her little boy Cohen.  Erica will be keeping Levi while I am at work - I am super jealous about that.  But after seeing her with him yesterday I will say that I am not as terrified about leaving him as I was... and her little boy was so sweet with him!  Levi liked Erica too, he snuggled with her and he only does that with people he likes! :)  I have no doubt he will be loved on all day and I couldn't ask for a more perfect situation... now I just have to be strong enough to drive away tomorrow morning.

So today I have been holding that baby close and he has been super sweet.  I held him during his short morning nap and then put him in his high chair right beside me when I had to go do dishes and make him more bottles.  I think he's starting to get a little annoyed with me so I have him sitting right beside me now and he's happily watching TV. 

Tomorrow will start what our lives will be like with Kenneth and I both working - it should be interesting and I'm sure exhausting!  I planned to go back tomorrow because I had to go back by next Tuesday and I figured that if I go back on this Friday I will have a 3 day weekend to recover! I'm sure I will spend most of the day tomorrow in tears and showing pictures of Levi all day which will probably make me cry even more - I plan on taking lots of tissues!

So this weekend I plan on not letting him go very much - we have the wrestling banquet on Sunday but he will be right in my lap during that too!! I'm going to be selfish... I might let Kenneth hold him some!! :)

I'm pretty sure this is what Levi thinks about me going back to work: